a moment of pure confession from me.

taufik , you've been the best. the awesome.

the only one that i know i can trust on.

You provide me with the tip top attention, respect and care.

i maybe unsure of us last time.

but today Taufik, i'm sure with you is where i wanna be.

I know i love you. But i used to think she still inside your heart.

Given to th five years of love and devotion with her.

I may not be as pretty as her.

not as perfect as her.

but who cares.?

i know i'm giving you all the love i can give.

with you , i never really have to worry where you are or who you're with.

cause i know you're doing me right every single minute.

eventhough there're things that i still cannot get used to ; i'm pretty much sure i still love you.

and mind you, it's still growing.

this feelings that i have for you , im sure it's an exception.

cause i used to be a perfectionist , i can never accept people doing anything less.

but with you. i accepted all your flaws. maybe cause the way you love me and the way your initiative kicks in makes up for everything you're short of.

ass it dear.

i used to be damn unsure about us.

tripping everytime i think about her.

but now i no longer care. cause i know it terms of unconditional love , she's no match for me.

i don't need all that material stuffs. all i need is love that comes from the heart not mouth.

i know you're th one that i wanna make things happen with.

you're the one i wanna fall back with.

now im sure whenever i have to retreat , you'll fall back with me.

what else would i wanna ask from you.?

good looking. nice smile. almost perfect boyf. sweet.

what else.?

you're here for me literally everyday.

showering me love and attention.

i used to be unsure about us.

eventhough i'm still guessing about your true emotions right now ,

im sure it no longer matter.

cause you're already here with me now.

that's all matter. and i wanna make things happen.

ass all the other guys who tell me they need me or whatever not.

i need you like i need to eat.

you're no longer a WANT. you already become a NEED.

distinguish the difference baby.

and you know how much i truly love you.

Dear , those other people might tryna pull us apart.

but just like a soldier , you would always protect me and fight your way to keep us together.

you're my hero.

my idol.

My Man.

I know i've fall for the sweetest drug ever.

i love to hear when you say you need me everyday.

how you want me everyday.

how much you love me everyday.

i wanna make it right this time.

remember when you say you'll be my last boyf in my entire life cause you'll stay with me.?

i'm holding to that dear.

very much hold it tightly.

Dear , whenever i think of you, i feel so damn blessed.

cause nobody can love me better than you do now.

nobody in my past can do it better than you do darling.

and darling.

like an angel , you guide me through, you hold me tight and comfort me with your love.

like the star you brighten up my night.

Just like romeo and juliet , ooppss, better than them.

Our love is a miracle.

it's legendary.

it's something people would search their entire life and most never really got it.

but we did.

all the more i should treasure you.

you're my prized possession.

you're my armour. protecting me from all th possible pain and danger.

thankyou baby.

i hope you will never make me lose faith in love again.

i finally am sure you're th one.

no longer doubting baby.

so please.

do it right.

((:

with lotssssaaaa love,

written by ; fydawasowskishawty.

people say the essential thing in love is trust.
once the trust is broken , tarnish or misused , they say the love is either slowly depleting or just stop growing.
from th beginning of time , i know he's not ready to let me into his private life.
who am i kidding .? he was never open to me. he;s keeping stuffs.
acting like i'm an outsider.
i remember reading from a magazine stating that if that particular guy isn't ready to let you in his private life , he ain't ready to share his love, life and future with you.
and i know it's only been awhile . but come on , if not now then when.?
i'm th type of person who finds it very hard to you know actually trust someone back when he actually broke it.
i wonder if he likes it if i broke his trust.
everything i do or say , i never been hiding things .
cause i hope he would do th same.
but somehow, i believe that this will never work anymore.
trust is gone.
and i'll never be able to you know find it back for him.

why is it that now i'm in a relationship where all th guys doubt his love for me.?
every now and then they would ask where topek.?
i'm dumbfounded sehh.
seriously.
i'm like in the middle of a war now with my family. they hate me cause i missed out the funeral.
but not as if i deliberately want it to happen what.
i know i fell asleep while waiting for th transport. but when i wake up, i really badly wanna go there and i realised i was broke.
and they are hurling words to me. everything i tried to explain but never would they try to listen.
and eventhough i try to keep my cool , i just hope that one day i'll get out of this house and live my life anew. fuck it. im damn hopeless.

this goes to someone special in my life.